What an outpouring of love and support I got from my readers yesterday! Thank you all for your emails and comments. They meant a great deal to me.
I spent a good portion of yesterday knitting. It's the one thing that seems to soothe me and keep my mind from reeling too much. I remembered last night that I was knitting a strawberry hat for Kaelyn while Andrew was in the hospital. I wonder where it got to. I remember finishing it, but can't remember ever seeing it again...
Morgan must have been reading my mind (in advance, no less) because when I got home from work yesterday there was a package from Amazon containing Sarah McLachlan's Solace. The irony of the CD's title was not lost on me, as that was exactly what I was needing. Thank you so much, Morgan! I've been listening to it this morning while working and sneaking in a row or two on Plum Frost. I'm nearly through the second repeat now and I just finished the first ball of yarn. The Cashmerino is just the perfect thing to knit when you're feeling down. Its cushy softness has a healing effect.
I also got a lovely RAOK from Lori who returned the spoon she unintentionally kidnapped at the Knit In (it fell into the container of curry that she made). She included a darling notepad reminding me that I am The Princess of Quite A Lot, a wee pink piggy bath bomb, Raspberry Creams, the recipe for her killer Cinnamon Quickbread (a total post Knit In hit with Kevin and me) and a hank of Classic Elite Wings in a heavenly periwinkle shade. It's Alpaca, Silk and Wool. Yummy! Thank you Lori!
If there's one thing that makes blogging important to me, it is the opportunity to speak who I am out into the universe. I'm always so surprised that so many people are out there listening. Externalizing my thoughts and feelings has become a necessary outlet, my normal nature being to internalize and bottle up my frustration, my anger, my sadness. Having the blog has helped tremendously with being able to express myself in my everyday life and I hope that my interactions in person are as forthright and honest as my blog is.
Kevin has been a rock the past few days. He's solid and strong and lets me have the space I need to work through my stuff. Mostly, he holds me when I cry and is just there for it. He never interferes or tells me to get over it. He doesn't tell me that it's alright. He just lets me cry until the tears stop. Just when I think that I couldn't possibly love him more, he goes and shows me more ways to love him. And then he hands me back my knitting.
I didn't stop by for a visit this week, so I didn't see your post. I've been trying to knit more than blog and surf. I remember last year when you remembered your brother (or was it on his birthday, it seems as if it wasn't that long ago). You write in a way that clearly conveys your love for him. My prayer for you is that as the years go by this time brings joy to your heart and not pain. Cuddle your loved ones for strength.
Posted by: Teresa C | February 06, 2005 at 08:06 AM
The MH is coming along beautifully. Can't wait to start mine... if the pattern ever gets here. lol.
Posted by: Jean | February 05, 2005 at 02:16 AM
Yarn therapy and a great guy and great kids...a perfect combo for soothing the psyche! :-)
Posted by: Eklectika | February 04, 2005 at 11:29 AM
Ok..I gotta say...I love the blog. Damn you, woman!! As for your latest post, yeah, you got lucky with that big lug of a guy, there! I know you 2 are happy as 2 could possibly be, and more it seems!! Give the guy a kiss from his big, black, MRT buddy, will ya!!? Oh...I want that recipe too. LORI, that stuff rocked!!!
Posted by: Nita | February 04, 2005 at 09:30 AM
What a great guy you have. You Must Have is really beautiful. Knitting is our salvation.
Posted by: Margene | February 04, 2005 at 08:47 AM
Your MH is stunning. I just read yesterday's post! So sorry that you have such a sad memory in February! My thoughts are with you.
Posted by: Mary Beth | February 04, 2005 at 05:08 AM
Your color choice for the must have is beautiful!
So glad you have Kevin as your support as well as all of us! Take care!
Posted by: Kate | February 03, 2005 at 04:30 PM
Ok. Now I get it. THANK YOU for posting that nice clear, large picture of your piece of the Must Have. NOW I get it. (oops, already said that) I now know that my stitches are fine. I was so worried. I didn't "get" what I was doing and thought I was screwing up.
Posted by: Norma | February 03, 2005 at 02:51 PM